There is no rap music for middle-aged women.
A warm day in the midst of winter is an opportunity to open the windows and air out the house. This is not a fortune cookie statement, but a fact of domestic life. I have a 4-disc set of Rai, what one might think of as international rap music, and cranked it up as I cleaned. Passers by might have thought an annoying teenager lived here, but lo- it is I, Middle Aged Woman! The MAW whose husband and children had gone off to decorate Christmas cookies with a couple of other dads and kids, leaving me a rare afternoon alone in the house.
What would you do if you saw my neighbors and I dressed in baggy but comfortable clothes, no makeup, and rapping out sharp lyrics about our lives? It might make U-Tube, and people would get a good laugh. We are not male, and while female, we are not young. The image would not fit the standard mental slot for rap. Yet cant we empathize? What legitimacy do middle aged woman have? Cant MAWs of all colors rap-out about their lives and what they see as repressions, frustrations, threats, and sins?
Oh I hear the standard backlash now- you are appropriating our form and messages. Hmm. And who started this form? How long has it been going on, transformed by every user and communicator who has opened his or her mouths? You might want to listen carefully too, because aside from the subtle forms and change ups musically, the messages will be very different.
This got me to thinking about David Byrnes 2004 album, Grown Backwards. On it is a rendition of the grand opera classic Au Fond du Temple Saint (G. Bizet, The Pearl Fishers– re passion, friendship) . Much like Harry Chapin describes in his classic song Mr. Tanner, there is a quality about Byrnes rendition that is so raw, so innately human, that it reminded me of what happens after one attends a particularly good opera production. You might find yourself standing under a streetlight late at night, after the post event meal and wine, singing. Singing at the top of your voice with like-minded friends, singing the aria that captured all the pain, symbolism, and raw emotion of the show, of life; singing slightly out of tune, off tempo, but engaged. Engaged fully in the human experience, in the joy that can be music, joy even when it transmits pain. Byrnes voice is not well suited to singing, but it does convey a very sincere and engaged quality that is compelling to listen to. When this voice is married with his own lyrics and musical fusions of sound, it is repeatedly worth listening to. When singing grand opera, it is the person on the street, the everyday nature of music, the– dare I say it– Humanist quality that draws me in. I have sung grand opera arias, and I know that if one can get beyond the cultural stereotypes, the anticipated problems with different languages, all the baggage that most often accompanies opera, it can be a powerful musical experience. Often a character is singing out about his or her tragedy, asking the listener to witness- just like good gospel or rap does hear, learn, and at best, to understand.
My father knows this. My factory worker, ashamed-he-never-went-to-college father, who tried one evening many years ago to take his wife and young son to hear a traveling company perform a grand opera, a one-night-only-performance at the local higher education outpost. He could see as the doors closed that less than a third of the seats were filled, but the box office attendant stood firm that he had not reserved his ticket, this was a special fundraising performance, and his family could not go in even as he could pay. He had listened to classical music his entire life, and knew the story of the opera, knew its power, and only wanted for once to see it performed live. He didnt bring a pocket lighter, he wore his only suit and tie- he knew how to behave. He begged the attendant, explaining he had brought his wife and son; they needed to see this, to really hear it, to understand what he understood. He was still turned away. They drove the hour back home in silence. He is 71 now, and he has still never seen an opera performed live. Yet when he is cleaning, he will occasionally crank the worn audiotape I made him of popular arias and sing out at the top of his voice.
What I sing about today as I throw the plastic sippy cups into the trash is an angry lament for plastic. Recent reports of exceedingly high lead levels in childrens toys, baby products, and even vinyl decorations on childrens towels (!! What the hell is THAT about? Who puts lead into vinyl and why? What known chemistry would have that make sense?). Many parents jittery, but more disturbing is that yet another company(http://www.nytimes.com/2007/12/08/business/worldbusiness/08water.html?_r=1&ref=science&oref=slogin) has begun ceasing the use of bisphenol-a, or B.P.A, a common plastic chemical.
The research so far is clear, there is a low baseline of toxicity for this product and the effects are decidedly carcinogenic (cancer causing) as well as endocrine-disturbing, to the sex hormones of boys in particular. Amidst junk food (see or read Fast Food Nation if you have not), amidst air pollution, amidst the tainted food and slack FDA enforcements of this administration, we also have pervasive toxins that alone, in small concentrations, others would argue are safe. Sure, if you only come into contact with the substance once in your life, in a small amount. But the truth is that we come into contact with these things everyday, everywhere, and under less than perfect conditions (mixed with other hazards, and under heat and cold that break them down and make them more available to our bodies). As a parent, my job is to educate and protect my children. Convenience be damned, bye bye sippy cups. You dont want a mentally deranged, damaged adult ruining your nice dinner or drive someday, so we as parents are expected to help train up children to be socially responsible, contributing members of society. It isnt easy, and it isnt always clear how to do this- so forgive my caution. Forgive my anger. My children, your children, are not commodities to be drained of all value and discarded. They are not just little consumers who ought to be treated as if caveat emptor was the primary rule, and if you can get away with hurting them then do so.
Rap that fiddy, or shut up and listen. Hear and understand. Sing it out.
I gotta go open a window.